I cant help but feel our time is all up
maybe imm terrible dude
but i am doing the utter best i can for us
while your doing nothing
just helping others
am i such a terrible guy to talk to hang out with to been seen of?
i dont know what i do wrong and you dont tell me things when you yourself said we should tell each other more things.
think about it
its obvious you bitch so badly about me to other people you think i know nothing of?
find definitely i do tell ppl things about you but i have to say i would always ask them and tell them also to hear your story first cause i might not be all correct and all
how you dont give a shit about the times we have
think about it..
you say ohh i hate it when you give me one word replies
your the one starting all the one word replies i'll have you know everything before all this problems was one shitty words replies and up till now you still give me one word replies..
freaking look at the past wei like you use to be so full of joy in front of me now its just bloody yeah and yeah replies. LIKE LOOK AT YOURSELF.
Why are you so concern over guys instead of me? am i really that horrible?
you think its so easy to tell you things when you dont really care about my problems in the first place..
like you would choose sims to play with over me..
THINK ABOUT IT.
I GAVE EVERYTHING FOR YOU LA
and right now, i cant feel anything else.. not a drop of tear.. not jealousy anymore, not disappointment , i just feel angry and thats all i feel right now.. i feel so ripped off i can't friggin feel anything anymore and the thought of it is shit
does it bother you that you dont care that our relationship is SO FULL OF SETBACKS and you just say nothing about it? why do you think we're even in this? its to learn about each other and up till now think about where we are really and how much do we know each other...
Just think about it like you have rights to be angry not unreasonable
I dont have rights to be unreasonable too so i put up with all your excuses but im beginning to think its just so bully shit like im not joking yet i have no one to tell about this.
ABSOLUTELY NO ONE
why? cause i sacrificed everybody i would tell my problems to you and tell them TO YOU and right now your missing not caring about all my problems..
Im in deep shit now and all you can say is ' chill' LIKE YOU KNOW WHAT IS RE-LA-TION-SHIP or okay fine.. we're not there yet, F-RI-END-SHIP?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
you dont even care about listening to my problems like whatsyourproblem?!??!?!?!
and you only find me to talk about your problem...
either that or you talk to me that you get annoyed AT EVERYTHING -,-
im standing hard doing what i think is the right thing to do and i would do it all over again all for you only you. but when your like this how much can a person tolerate and not be crazy i dont know mannn. all i know is if you keep doing this we're done like the end of the story but you'd be wrong if i try to make you sad and all.. i'll put you softly down cause from all this anger.sadness.confusion.shitfeeling the one thing that keeps me going is your happiness and i mean't it...
and now im just complaining to a blog..... BLOGS ARE AWESOME(: especially dead ones. their good listeners plus no one would see it (;
not that im falling to pieces
but im losing myself completely.
